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Feigned Love
It was never real
i don’t think you truly loved me
because you accused me for your filthy misdoings
and you constantly deflected the woes i repeatedly addressed —
the woes of which you created —
no matter what truths i uttered into the clouded airs around you
i don’t think you truly loved me
because you cruelly mistreated me time and time again,
no matter how many tainted tears i cried
and no matter how many times i pitily screamed into my pillow
all while you watched me suffer
i don’t think you truly loved me
because of the way you looked me in my saddened eyes
without blinking or breathing
and telling me about your fucked-up past
as if that negated all the wrong doings you gleefuly threw my way
i don’t think you truly loved me
because you couldn’t own up to one damn misdeed,
even calling me a “psycho” when i found your hidden treasures
that were never used on me
but were kept in full stock for everyone else who walked your way
