Reflections on prayer
“True prayer is neither a mere mental exercise nor a vocal performance. It is far deeper than that — it is a spiritual transaction with the Creator of Heaven and Earth.”
— Charles Spurgeon
God, I need you right now. I need you to give me gut feelings both when I need to change my course and when I’m on the right path already. I need you to open doors that need to be opened and close the doors that no longer serve me. I need you to make yourself known so that I can deepen my prayers but also my relationship with you. I need you right now. God, I love you, and I want to love myself with an agape love that you love me. I want to see. Hear. Feel. Taste. Smell. The airs around you. And you, yourself. I need you always but especially right now. You’re the creator of Heaven and Earth, and with you, I have a glimpse of Heaven on Earth.
I used to pray for things I wanted, thinking I knew best. And when my wants were forced or not for me? I was confused. I’ve since learned to pray for God to open the doors that are meant to be opened. I prayed for life to be easy when it’s for me, and for me to struggle when I’m not meant to be doing something. But I also pray for strength and wisdom and the ability to discern what’s meant for me and simply put, what’s not. I pray for the windows to open themselves wide to let the light in when I’m on my path. I pray for events to be closed when they no longer serve me.
I pray that God shows me love the way I am meant to feel loved, be loved and also display love. I pray that I see the light and feel God. I pray that He guides me in the right path so that I can easily see what’s in store for me.
I thank God, also. I thank him for His love. His presence. His knowledge. His power. His words. His feelings.
He is so beautiful, and his energy is abundant.