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The Embarrassing Truth
I play the fool
“What happens when people open their hearts?”
“They get better.”
― Haruki Murakami
A poem
i surrendered to you
and you let go of me like a balloon held loosely in the grips of a child
i found the trust that’s been suppressed in me for far too long a time
but you squandered it like an ant under your cowboy boot
as if you didn’t even see me at all
because you’re much bigger than i
and also much more of a coward
i told you from the start i’m not perfect
but i’m me
who the fuck are you
you said you needed time
but time isn’t even a truth but a man-made abstract hope
my heart has shifted into a ghost
disappearing yet again so i can heal myself in hiding
i try to remain genuine
and i have you to thank for that
i’m transparently living up to my dreams
that no longer include anyone but me
love doesn’t exist
